Yesterday we went to Yellowstone Park which was pretty cool. I’d never been there before and it was interesting. I wanted to see a bear but all we saw were Bison (lots and LOTS of Bison), Moose, a chipmunk… thing lol and some really scary big birds.

My eating has been…. ok. Like I said in the last post it’s now really good enough to lose weight but I’m hoping I’m not gaining too much.

Along with getting a new scale when I get home I’m planning on getting back to the gym! I honestly can’t wait to start working out again even though I’m in horrible shape.

To kick things off and jump start me again I’m planning on taking classes instead of trusting myself to do good on the treadmill. Classes are nice because they force you to push yourself in a way that you wouldn’t normally otherwise.

So I’m going to start taking 6 classes a week and give myself a rest day (Probably Sunday unless I have to skip another day) I’ll also supplement the classes with some extra abs and free weights.

I’m gonna stick with this plan until October 3rd because the 5th is my birthday and the 4th is a Sunday and then it will be the week of my brothers wedding and I’m sure I won’t be able to keep up a routine that week.

I’m excited about starting this new program and I’m confident I’ll get great results from it! Ok I’ll update more when I get back or if I have time while I’m here!

xoxo
Brittany

It honestly didn’t dawn on me that the house we are staying at might not have WiFi lol I take it for granted so! So I’m updating this from a coffee shop in Montana. I had some work to do and I decided to take some time to update you all on my weight loss while on vacation.

I ended up not taking my scale because that’s what most of you said I should do. You were probably right. I haven’t been able to stick to my diet very much at all while here. I’m staying in my husband’s grandmothers house and we pretty much just eat what is cooked for lunch and dinner.

There are some good things though. I haven’t snacked the entire time I’ve been here. I’ve just been eating 3 meals a day even when in the car. My in laws packed about a million and one snacks for the trip and I didn’t eat any of them.

Also I’ve been able to substitute my slim fast bars for several meals though not all of them by any means. So yeah… things are going ok weight wise I guess. I’m pretty much planning on a gain but I’m not going to stress out about it because what good would that do really.

So I’m going to weigh when I get home on my current scale just to get an idea of what I’ve gained and then when I get home I plan on buying a new scale. I just hate the one I have now. I have to weigh about 3 or 4 times because sometimes it gives me different numbers… that sucks.

I’m thinking of getting a weight watchers scale that has the body fat percentage too! Does anyone have any experience with that? I think it’s like $40 at Target so that’s probably the one I’ll get.

Anyways that’s about all. Like I said I’m not on plan but I’m not WAY off plan either. I guess I’ll really just deal with it when I’m home.

See ya later!
Britt

P.S. going to Yellowstone tomorrow! Yay! I want to see a bear! lol

from 266 to 267

oh well I chalk it up to the weirdness of the body and that’s what I get for weighing everyday I guess. The body fluctuates…

I really want a new scale that is more reliable so I think when I get home I might indulge in one. Maybe even one that has a body fat percentage. Any suggestions?

Well I’m off to back and get ready to leave now…

xoxo
Brit

Woo hoo!!

Today it’s back on track but yesterdays little indulgence was good for me I think. At least I know that I can go out to eat every now and then and not totally wreck my diet.

So that’s gonna be it for now because I’m in full on “getting ready for vacation mode”

And this is the last time I’ll pimp this out but if you haven’t voted on my scale question (two posts down) please do I need to know the results by tomorrow when I pack!

Thanks!

Then I had the strongest craving for Mexican food and it was clear to me that it wasn’t going to go away. So I decided to get Mexican food to go. I knew I didn’t want something super fatty but still something that was going to satisfy my craving so I went for fajitas. They were gooooood! And maybe it’s just be justifying it but honestly I don’t think they were THAT bad. It was steak, 3 small flour tortillas, charro beans, a little bit of guac, and an even smaller amount of sour cream. No cheese, or anything else too bad.

So after that I was full because I’m now use to eating much smaller meals. So that was my only meal of the day. I had an orange later that evening and I’m about to make a cup or two of tea but that’s it. Maybe I went over my usual calories but my guess is when it’s all said and done I didn’t do too bad. And I need to learn how to eat out without anxiety. So there you go.

The proof will of course be in the pudding when I get on the scale tomorrow. So we’ll see.

Oh and I weighed in this morning at 267

Other than that I’m pretty much racked with stress and anxiety over this trip. I’m trying to clean my house before we go (because who likes to come home to a dirty home) plus we have to leave our puppy Jackson with a boarder for the first time since we got him. It breaks my heart to leave the little guy! And finally I’m stressed out about the diet and the weight loss. I want to have fun and relax but I DON’T want to come home and have gained a bunch of weight back. Plus there is just the fact that I’ll be spending so much time with family and that can always be stressful…. ugh…. I need to relax.

So this reminds me, please go to the post below this one and vote… tell me if I should bring my scale on vacation or not. Thanks!

EDIT: OH! I forgot to tell you about something epic! Ok so it’s not really that epic but you know…. I wore a sleeveless shirt in public today. haha normally I try hard to cover my arms. I hate them. But today I thought “honestly is covering up my arms really going to make people believe I’m skinny” and the answer is of course NO! So I said the heck with it and wore a sleeveless shirt for the first time in a looooong time. Just thought I’d share

what do ya think???

It all started when I logged onto facebook to find that one of my friends had tagged me in some photos of an event I had gone to with my church friends. I HATE being tagged in photos because you never know how they’re going to turn out and they’re usually not good. But these were especially hideous.

I don’t know… I guess I look in the mirror and see a different person. I know I’m fat. I know I’m much bigger than all my friends but I just don’t see this epicly huge monster of a girl in the mirror. So when I see pictures of myself looking like this giant fat slob it really hits me hard. WHO IS THIS GIRL AND WHAT IS SHE DOING LIVING MY LIFE!?!?!

I know I’ve lost over 20 lbs. but I still have 147.5 to go! Can I make it? Will I EVER be the thin cute girl? Do people REALLY see me as this giant disgusting person? I know it’s not healthy to think like that but honestly I can’t help but…

It’s crazy that just a few pictures can ruin your mood this way but they have. This morning I woke up and weighed myself and I was less than I’d been in a while… so how can all that positivity be taken away by a few terrible pictures?

UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE THIS!

oh btw here are two of the horrid pictures that ruined my day. just in case you were curious… (I’m the giant in the pink shirt)

Anyway I’m still happy. I’d love to be at 265 by Monday when I leave for Montana on vacation. That way I could just maintain the whole time I’m there and get back and maybe lose some more before August is over.

So all around good news… but why do I feel a sense of dread with every new pound I lose? It’s like I don’t want it to stop I guess. I’m a junkie and losing weight is my drug of choice.

Also as far as weight goes I’ve been bouncing between 269 and 267.5 depending on what time of day I weigh. I’m gonna get an “official weight” when I wake up tomorrow which is what I should do every day but sometimes I weigh at night because I’m too anxious.

I’m only 4-2.5 (depending on what weight you take) pounds away from my goal for August!!! yay!! This will be good because if I can get ahead of my schedule it will cut me some slack in the later months when my weight is lower and losing weight is harder.

So that’s my update… check back tomorrow for an official weight

the fat girl inside me is pissed that I’m not feeding her enough. She would like some taco bell, a cheeseburger, some mozzarella sticks and an extra large pizza please.

UGH! Loving food sucks!